I’m a teabag wishing to become a cup of aromatic tea. But being afraid to take the leap into hot water, I go around looking for people to do me the favour of dunking me instead. Yes, despite my fears of being scalded. How masochistic.

The bell curve is almost like a permanent standard. Sometimes I wonder, since there can only have so many successful people in the world, perhaps I should just live happily as a mediocrity. But I’m afraid of not living up to my potential too. As J.D. Salinger has so nicely put it, “I’m sick of not having the courage to be an absolute nobody.”

Should I sit in comfort as a teabag and forever wonder how my life would be different as tea, or should I accept the challenge and endure the hardships that is to come? The only fear in choosing the latter is again, self-doubt.

What if I’m not even a teabag to begin with? What if I’m just juice? Or milk?

I don’t want to be ruined.

Ah, the conundrum!

Inspirations have I none

FOC is over and I’m so so so so relieved it turned out pretty great. Beyond thankful for having had a team of dedicated and efficient proggies plus their unconditional support.

Two weeks into sophomore year and i’m still in holiday mood. Not at all psyched for the first vc and typo projects, but oh well that’s what I get for choosing timetable over profs. Forensics feels like a submerged iceberg. Madness is dwindling. French can kill. But electives sure are a great way for making new acquaintances. Especially when you feel like a total idiot in class and turns out, the person next to you does too. Common experiences brings people together ya.

Old yet new; an unfolding familiarity – hall, harmonica, work-study and whatnot.

I really miss updating this space with all my routine nonsense, but such time has become a luxury. Anyway the real purpose of this post is to rant about my lack of inspiration for vc. Sorry to have wasted your time. LOL. Back to work.

My man

“I hate being clever […] when you don’t really feel clever and don’t want to be clever. To sneak around and make plans and feel big about making them. I hate this feeling of thinking I’m doing right when I’m not really certain I am. Who are we, anyway? The majority?

Is that the answer? The majority is always holy, is it not? Always, always; just never wrong for one little insignificant tiny moment, is it? Never ever wrong in ten million years?

What is this majority and who are in it? And what do they think and how did they get that way and will they ever change and how the devil did I get caught in this rotten majority? I don’t feel comfortable.

Can one man be right, while all the world thinks they are right? Let’s not think about it. Let’s crawl around and act exciting and pull the trigger. There, and there!”

– Ray Bradbury

March 2016

Better three months late than never x_x

02 Progatoes Location Scouting

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It was a whole day of walking with Freda, Nick, Reynard, Kuang Jun and Toby. Tiring, but we had our share of fun. Headed back to hall that evening, where my brain got fried for the night.

03 Outdoor Drawing @ Vivocity

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Xiantian’s painting, not mine obviously hahaha

05 Hebe’s Concert

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Live 也超好听 TvT

14 3D Cosplay Submission

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Behold! Our riches-to-rags-girl-on-fire look!

17 2D Submission

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I made a children’s book of sorts for binbin and xinxin🙂

18 Harmonica Appreciation Dinner

We had pizza while watching our concert video together. Oh and I finally recovered my lost tumbler in the band room, so happy!😀

19 Essay Writing

Stayed in hall to churn out the art history essay because the ceramics book was too heavy to lug home together with my laptop and adapter. I took three or four naps that day in between trying to finally start, starting and looking for points. HAHAHA. Exhausting.


Yes, finally koped my first ever free buffet from one of the functions :p Our whole hobo night gang sure stuffed ourselves silly over the ridiculously good (and free!) food. Too bad zhixin wasn’t in school😦

22 HRM Quiz Round Two

It was unfortunate that I didn’t have time to study for the first one as it clashed with submission week. And sadly, I don’t think I did well for the second quiz too despite putting in much more effort. I just hope the lecturer has had fun reading my script and judging me.

24 FOC Briefing

Whoo! Hope we got everyone hyped up and up-to-date.

25 Good Friday

Spent it on candle shopping for 3D I’m super broke T_T

28 Movie Night with the Supper Club

Sort of. Plus red wine and honey stars. Didn’t finish exorcist and I decided to forgo cube while the rest watched. Ended up not accomplishing anything academic-related for the night, sigh. It’s like a sudden calm between the heaves of a storm.

29 Harmonica Election

Took longer than I expected it to. Looking forward to seeing what Trung and Joe will do🙂

31 An important date to keep in mind